How time flys

6 months ago to the day, I lost someone very special to me. My younger brother Alex. It was very sudden and unexpected. My family had already suffered a great loss when my Grandmother (who raised me) passed away a few short months before. I can honestly say this has been the hardest and most tragic thing to happen in my life. Sometimes it doesn't seem real.

Alex was 20 years old. He had barely started life. He had so much to live for. It still breaks my heart. But our Heavenly Father must have had greater plans for him. I have to remind myself of that. But with each day, it does get easier. I have had to learn to live life without two of my favorite people.

Alex was so funny and witty. He was also stubborn and a pain. He loved reading and studying up on old Presidents and all the conspiracy theories. He was also amazing at rapping and creating raps. I was always so envious of these talents. Whatever he wanted to do or learn, he would. Alex was just the light in our families eyes. He is actually an Identical twin. That is our saving Grace, he may not be here, but his twin is. We still get to see him every time we look at his brother Andrew. But it is also bittersweet.

With all this loss, it makes me appreciate life and those in my life so much more. You never know when someone you love can be taken from you. I never want to go a day without the people I love knowing how much I care and appreciate them. I know without a doubt that Alex knew. He was my best friend. I made him a promise to never let a day go bye where I don't think of him. I intend to keep that promise till the day I am reunited with him in Heaven.

I promise Buddy.