As I sit here writing, it is so hard to believe that I have been married for almost two months. Sometimes being at home cooking dinner for my Hubby, I have a hard time grasping that I am married. Life is hitting the gas pedal and I am just enjoying the ride.
You always hear to enjoy dating because once you get married, it is so different and times can be hard. I would be lying if I were to say its been nothing but a perfect fairytale. But I am happy to say, I am happy. I love my husband more and more each day. But adjusting from being a single independent stubborn woman in her early 20s, is just as hard as teaching an old dog new tricks. This is not my first rodeo. I have survived living on my own since I was 18 years old. So adjusting to sharing money and agreeing when to spend it and how, has been a trial. But...I am learning and trying. Thank goodness I have such a patient Husband.
Needless to say, it has also been so much fun. Cheap dates nights, cuddling and watching movies, making desserts we both love, and always having someone to go to bed with. The married life is good.
With getting married and starting a new chapter, you would think I would want to sit back and enjoy the next couple years with just my Husband. You are wrong, I am ready to start a family. I am so baby hungry. All I talk about and think about is babies. So I am hoping by writing about my obsession, I can stop bugging/annoying Michael. I can't help it though. I honestly feel like I have known and been with Michael my entire life, so naturally I am ready for the next chapter. BABIES!
How could I not want to have a baby with him, Michael is so handsome. I want several little identical Michaels running around our house. Truth be told, I know that with Michael I would be able to raise our children the right way and in the Gospel. I would be able to give them the loving parents that I always dreamed about. ( I had a wonderful Grandma who raised me with all the love in the world & two parents who always loved me very much. So I knew I was loved). I just cant wait to give my future children all the love in the world, and clothes.
Due to my insanity, I think/am hopeful every time I feel sick I am pregnant. But I just patiently wait for my Special time of the month. Last month, I can honestly say I was a bit heart broken. Even when I try to reason with logic, "I have only been married two months" or "We cant afford a kid" I still can't help but want a baby. Nothing seems to help. I guess you just can't help the way you feel. It is what it is.
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