Barriers Broken & Fairy Tale Beginnings

As a little girl, we are hand fed every Disney Fairy Tale Princess movie ever made. We start to believe that one day we will met our Prince Charming on a white horse, ready to save us from our Evil Step Mothers (or in my case my very strict Uncles, whom I love very very much). But now we grow up with this impossible standard. For most this is a sad day when you realize you have to lower your standards for today's "Gentleman", as for me I got lucky. I found a real life Prince Charming.  My Michael is perfect. He is nothing but sweet, kind, funny and caring. This makes sense, he is from the south. Southern Gentleman. His one flaw, he lost his accent when he went to serve a Mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. *I will let the non existent accent slide. 

So now I have my Prince Charming & my fairy tale beginning. But where are the movies that show you what happens after you get married? I know their are sequels but those always ruin the original. So let me tell you what really happens......NO BOUNDARIES, NO BARRIERS. It sounds super attractive huh? Please note that I love my husband, and I love being married. I highly recommend doing it :)

Anyways, I am very shy with bathroom things, I think bodily functions are gross, and I am the embarrassing person who prefers to turn on the sink when I use the restroom. I have even found counting helps me at times. Now, my husband thinks this is hilarious. So much so that he just opens the bathroom door while its occupied. THIS KILLS ME. I have begun locking the door but all that does is helps influence my toddler husband to standing outside the door talking to me. I love him too much to kill him. I think I will miss him.

Some think this is so funny or are amused by his immature ways. Hopefully he was put in his place a few nights ago....(Due to my embarrassment and loathing bathroom things, it is so shocking how funny I think this story is).... I am 24 years old and I wet my bed with my husband right next to me. It was a cold night and I woke up having to use the bathroom. I hate more then anything to get up from a cozy sleep to use the bathroom. So I decided to just stay in bed. I had to wake up in a few hours any ways. Well I fell back to my perfect slumber and cozied up next to my Husband. Not too long after, I woke up peeing my pants. I tried to stay very quiet not to wake Michael up. I cleaned up and went back to bed. Not telling him what happened until the next morning.

Such a learning curve to this thing called marriage. A few months ago I would have died of embarrassment knowing this would happen to me. Now I think its a bonding experience. 

Married Life: Two months down and Eternity to go

As I sit here writing, it is so hard to believe that I have been married for almost two months. Sometimes being at home cooking dinner for my Hubby, I have a hard time grasping that I am married. Life is hitting the gas pedal and I am just enjoying the ride.

You always hear to enjoy dating because once you get married, it is so different and times can be hard. I would be lying if I were to say its been nothing but a perfect fairytale. But I am happy to say, I am happy. I love my husband more and more each day. But adjusting from being a single independent stubborn woman in her early 20s, is just as hard as teaching an old dog new tricks. This is not my first rodeo. I have survived living on my own since I was 18 years old. So adjusting to sharing money and agreeing when to spend it and how, has been a trial. But...I am learning and trying. Thank goodness I have such a patient Husband.

Needless to say, it has also been so much fun. Cheap dates nights, cuddling and watching movies, making desserts we both love, and always having someone to go to bed with. The married life is good.

With getting married and starting a new chapter, you would think I would want to sit back and enjoy the next couple years with just my Husband. You are wrong, I am ready to start a family. I am so baby hungry. All I talk about and think about is babies. So I am hoping by writing about my obsession, I can stop bugging/annoying Michael. I can't help it though. I honestly feel like I have known and been with Michael my entire life, so naturally I am ready for the next chapter. BABIES!

How could I not want to have a baby with him, Michael is so handsome. I want several little identical Michaels running around our house. Truth be told, I know that with Michael I would be able to raise our children the right way and in the Gospel. I would be able to give them the loving parents that I always dreamed about. ( I had a wonderful Grandma who raised me with all the love in the world & two parents who always loved me very much. So I knew I was loved). I just cant wait to give my future children all the love in the world, and clothes.

Due to my insanity, I think/am hopeful every time I feel sick I am pregnant. But I just patiently wait for my Special time of the month. Last month, I can honestly say I was a bit heart broken. Even when I try to reason with logic, "I have only been married two months" or "We cant afford a kid" I still can't help but want a baby. Nothing seems to help. I guess you just can't help the way you feel. It is what it is.